Tuesday, November 9, 2010

as we die

high on the haunches of this war machine
the enterprising man can succeed
but
the struggle for peace strips me of my faith

even the grass speaks
of the depressing state of things

only the realist holds to the fight
but
the stiffness of the dry ground
 punishes us for our hope

everything fades to fog
each man alone in this place

we brought this trailing sea
 of joy and hope
but
as we die everything
comes undone

Monday, November 8, 2010

One versus One Hundred

Zai Luran common foot solider number 1-7849, this is who I am. The first of my kind, a commoner raised by the noblemen’s tutors and trainers. Abandoned on the door step of Sir Travin’s Home for Aspiring Knights, I was taken in to quell an uprising of the common folk against the king and nobles, it worked. They promised that others would follow, that there would be a new social class made up of men like me, commoners raised like knights. But seventeen years later I am still the only one, Zai Luran in a sea of Sir Charmaine, Sir Henry, and Sir Alexander. Then the day came that it all changed, the day of the test.

The test is a simple thing one man versus one hundred soldiers, not knights just common foot soldiers but there is one hundred of them. The goal is to last longer than the other team through any means necessary, many great men have died during this deadly game of the nobles. For it truly is just a game to them, they watch it happen in plush seats with wine and hot food, the lives lost mean nothing to them; after all they are just common soldiers. Only once has a noble been killed in this game and the commoner who committed the act was accused of murder and put to death. That was the first time that a man was put to death without a fair trial. But the nobles have added a challenge to my game, they got bored with the same old thing every week; I have to outlast without killing any of the one hundred men who will fight against me. Never in the three thousand years of Vastva history has this ever happened before.

From the ground I can’t see the arena that surrounds me, but I know that they all see me. My picture fills the hover screen high above my head; the whole event will be documented by the hover cam floating near my face for later review. The monotony of “Zai Luran vs. the hundred”, being repeated over and over again, was finally broken by the starting bell. I send a prayer to Willhelm, guardian of tactical maneuvers, and then I’m off running for my life.

The first twenty men are easy to capture, tossing rocks from my perches in the trees I lure them right into my most obvious snares. The next forty or so are a little smarter, or perhaps it is just harder now that it is getting dark, but they too stumble into my carefully laid plans. Most of the rest follow in much the same manner with more tossed rocks and rustled bushes, it‘s so easy that I nearly fall asleep and out of the tree, this would have given away my game as nobody had looked up yet. But then I was shot by one of the last three players and I lost my perch anyway, I scrambled up and sprinted down the nearest path. As I ran I heard more gunshots ahead, rounding the corner I saw the other two players shooting at each other, the path took me between them and straight to one of my more carefully concealed traps. The two who had been shooting each other turned to chase me and as I jumped into the nearest tree they collided with my net which hoisted them into the air. Ninety-nine down only one more to go.

The last man took much more time and nearly a quart of my own blood. A trail of blood led to and over one last trap, my most impressive by far I have to say. A pit with microscopic ropes crisscrossing it, the dark and a few leaves make it nearly impossible to see. Leading him down the path towards it I use the trees to swing up over the pit and to the other side, he rounded the corner and saw me standing in the middle of the path apparently out of breath. He walked right into the pit and was wrapped up in the net laying at the bottom, I had won.

The next morning it was announced, one of the men had died, I had failed. They said it was the last man I caught, they said he was strangled by the ropes of the net. But, I know that man lived. I cut him out of the net myself and left the arena with him, he was alive when I went home. They killed that man so that a commoner would not be knighted, so that the balance would stay the same, the thought makes me sick.

Zai Luran common foot soldier number 1-7849, this is who I am, this is who they have made me. But the time is coming that they will lose all their power, when they will become common. They trained me as a knight, they raised me as a knight, they tell me to fight as a foot soldier, but they forget that I think as a tactician. I see what no one else sees, I hear what no one else hears and what I see and hear is social unrest in all of the common folk. So what I do is bide my time, I wait it out, I persuade people to speak out, I speak out myself on occasion. One day all my time and work will pay off and I will get my revenge.

I Worry...

Sometimes I worry that I’ll move to the end of the world, That chickens will attack I worry that duct tape wont stick, That I’ll never be able to unpack Sometimes I worry that I’ll lose a book, That I’ll forget my name. I worry that I’ll fail the 7th grade, Or that I’ll never get to play a game. Sometimes I worry my family will leave me, That my computer will talk back. I worry that fish will grow legs and take over the world. I worry that the sky will fall, I’ll get lost in amaze and won’t get out, And the freaky nerd boy will ask me out on a date. The thing I worry most about is that I’ll run out of things to Worry about

I Don't Understand

I don’t understand Why politicians go bad Why people start wars Why famous people think they have it so hard But most of all Why anyone swears Why people go hungry Why the world sees it one way and we all agree Why most of us turn our heads and pretend not to see What I do understand is Why people care Why the times must change Why all good things must come to an end Why a solider gives his life for his nation

Ambition

All ties to human kind severed Hope for the future lost Nothing left to be treasured One bridge left to be crossed Hope for the future lost Your ambition took you too far One bridge left to be crossed Just because you wanted that new car Your ambition took you too far Lost sight of what really matters Just because you wanted that new car Any love for others shattered Lost sight of what really matters Nothing left to be treasured Any love for others shattered All ties to human kind broken

Anger is

Losing to a cheater Meeting a big liar War with millions of dead Best friend talking about you behind your back Getting yelled at for something you never did

Penny From Your Heart

Love has four legs and a tail It is graceful and poise There to warm and comfort When the blizzard is raging The cat with his yarn A kitten with her first mouse Fire when it snows Cider when it rains And asks but a penny From your heart

Too Young

Petite and sweet at the naïve age of four
When she holds his hand, he grins
She gets a strange feeling and wants to know more
She asks her mom who says “Your too young, tell you when you’re older”

Fourteen years later and now she’s eighteen
He kisses her hand with a laugh and a smile
That feeling, she’s so confused what does it mean
Asks and mama says “Your too young, tell you when your older”

Three years more and it happens again
But now the kiss lingers and the smile so sweet
The time has come she’s much more than ten
But mama shakes her head “Your too young, tell you when you’re older”

Less than a month and he is back
The kiss moved to the cheek and a whisper so sweet
 Feeling now familiar but the knowledge she lacks
“What is it?” she questions “Your too young, maybe next year”

One year later still as innocent as snow
He’s on one knee and holding a ring
Now she much know
She asks and mama simply says “its love”

His Eyes

His eyes Sparkle like stars She giggles and runs away His eyes Smile as he helps her Her daddy says not today His eyes Are kind and loving But she doesn’t see, he’s just a friend His eyes Crackle with anger and envy She takes no notice there are other things to tend His eyes Plead for permission What her daddy is thinking he can only guess His eyes Are scared but full of love Now she sees it gives her the courage to say “Yes”

Pride

 Knees bent waiting
Poised senses on high alert
Womph!
It connects with you teammates foot
Poking prodding punching
You fight for your place
Then suddenly all is
Silent
You jump, he jumps
Crack!
Your elbow connects with his nose
Your head with the ball
He is bleeding the nose broken
But that doesn’t matter now the ball
Went in, we won
Joyful teammates surround you
Fighting free you find him
Bleeding on the field you help him up
Congratulate him on a job well done
But You don’t apologize
He doesn’t want that
You have your pride and he has his

My Sisters Mom and Me!