I'm Addicted

My head is aching 

I don't want to be here

He is so close but I can't reach him

He isn't mine

I don't think he knows how much that hurts

He doesn't even know how hard it is not to take his hand when he walks me to class

He doesn't know how much it hurts when he forgets to hug me

I don't know why I keep him so close

It just hurts me 

I hate having him close and not being able to talk to him

I can't stand not having him around

I don't know what to do about it anymore

I don't know how to tell him whats going on inside of me

I hate his phone

It gets more attention then I do

I am jealous of his phone

Is this really what my life has come to

This isn't healthy 

I need to stop

...

I can't live without him

It's official

I'm addicted